ihatefats

ihatefats @ 2009-09-23T18:49:00

2009-09-23T22:55:42Z

I have such a huge APPETITE I could eat a ranch with baby animals!

Back and sick :(

2007-07-22T02:45:22Z

Guysguysguys!

I miss y'all SOooooo much! I've been off here for a really long time and i miss everything here. Everything!
Uni is starting again for me tmr and i can't wait to get back to lectures and stuff to keep to busy!
Holiday had been absolutely disgusting!

I BINGE.
I SLEEP.
I STUFF MY FACE.
EVERYTHING SUCKS!

Gosh, i really need the motivation now to get myself back up. I'm so gross out with myself and i wish i was my old self. CONTROL and MOTIVATED!

I hate this and i really want to get back to work and lose the weight i want and getting to my goal weight!

ihatefats @ 2007-05-03T13:51:00

2007-05-03T03:51:15Z

GOD DAMN IT! I just freaking binge on a freaking huge muffin and i so hate myself after that. It was all just laying on the desk and i'm so fucking greedy .. i grab one and ate it straight! I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT BLOODY CONTROLLING!

i've failed miserably for the last 2 wks. I can understand what i'm exactly craving for but i binge like i haven't eaten for years and this absolutely sucks!

Anyway, i was wondering what diet works for you guys to lose heaps of weight in like a wk.. Do you reckon the Atkins diet, cabbage soup diet,....etc? I'm so eager to lose weight cause i've been stuck at 110lbs for months now and i want to drop itt!!

ihatefats @ 2007-04-16T14:24:00

2007-04-16T04:26:28Z

Oh dear guys,

Sorry for posting again. Oh boy, i just realised i have been posting to myself from the very start and not postint to the pro-anorexia site. Stupid me and no wonder i don't usually recieved comments on any entries.

This has is so funny and stupid of me. I have been doing this for almost a month. So i'm like not really existing in the pro-ana page. Sorry for that!

ihatefats @ 2007-04-16T09:45:00

2007-04-15T23:48:11Z

I feel good today though its jus the beginning of the day! Yay cause i'm back in uni and there's heaps of chances to slip away with not eating and definitely not Binging!

I swear i've been stuffing my face with like 1500-2000cal everyday for the pass 2 wks and it totally sucks! It makes me sick in my stomach. So yay :) the wonderful start of the week!

I'm doing this routine with makemeamodel and i hope she does really well! And i'll definitely pesevere on!

Stay Strong guys and Think thin!

heysss

2007-04-12T07:29:45Z

Okay, i've been off this site for like a wk. I'm still pretty new here and i'm trying to get to know more people and everything. I love to chat and stuff and i definitely want to know u guys more :)!

Anw, it's been really difficult coming on and posting cause my sisters and i had this major quarrel over my 'self-secret' thing. So they kind of know i'm hiding stuff and i swear i wouldn't let them know bout this. So now i've got like 15 mins or so.

I've binge so much for these 2 wks and i'm like so high. Eating really comforts me in every way and at the moment i'm so happy but after that i'm kind of disgusted with myself. Man, i'm eating way over my limits esp during my holidays when i've got all the time in the world to eat. I'm glad that uni starts next wk and i'm back in sch, rushing for classes, at least buring of cals. I have lost about 5lbs for the 1st wk and it has remain constant since cause i've have been binging. At least i havent gain any so thats yay!

i'm ready to start again next wk and i hope i do really well. Anybody has knows how to lose some weight regularly like every wk? A small amt will do but regularly. There's lots people and that includes me, losing heaps in 2 wks and stop losing any more weight even if they have continue exercising and controlling and it sucks to be in that situation.

I hope you guys are doing real well and stay strong.

ihatefats @ 2007-04-05T21:36:00

2007-04-05T11:48:13Z

I'm really upset, really upset.

Nothing Ed-Nos related but because i feel so lonely.

Extremely lonely :(

I had to do a phy prac today for 3hr all by myself and i'm the only 1 in class having to do it all alone. How's that. My damn freaking 'group members' did it on another day and i feel really betray.

It was embarrassing, VERY! Everybody was looking at me from the start. I teary during the entire class. Damn, I'm such a loner.

And the teachers were all kind of helping me out cus i'm the only 'poor-thing' one that is all alone. Man, i hate this! And while going home, I cried!

I hate having
to feel like that.

Why am i so alone?

I don't have best friend.
I don't have good friends.
I don't have a bf.

And the most impt group of people in my life is my family and at this stage, my sisters.

I thank god for them but i'm still lonely.

Friends are important, isn't it?

ihatefats @ 2007-04-05T13:08:00

2007-04-05T03:11:41Z

Hi guys,
I've not been here for a few days now. Too much things going on at home and i Bloody put on 2lbs. This sucks i know and i'm starving myself today, at least for lunch! I don't know why but i'm feeling less and less guilty about bingeing and i don't want to! I've read SOOOO much about diet tips and ways to lose weight and be in control but i always lose it. Is anybody out there that is similar to what i am? I know i'm a fat fat ass. Oh gawd, i hate myself!

ihatefats @ 2007-04-02T16:05:00

2007-04-02T06:05:11Z

hey huns :)

I'm trying so hard to resist my temptation when i'm back home but i failed :'( and i'm really upset with myself. Damn it! Now i feelin so guilty. I feel like i'm the most hopeless ass ard who isn't able to control my mouth.

I'm 5'2 and weights 115lb and i wanna lose 10-15lb by the end of April. Is anyone with a similar stat wants to join in with me so we could work together? everybody else is welcome too and i'll be accountable for your weight!

Whoever out there can e-mail at chubnubs@hotmail.com when u need someone to talk to or any other things!

Love u guys heapss!

ihatefats @ 2007-04-01T21:35:00

2007-04-01T11:37:21Z

II haven't been posting for a few days now.

Anw, A brand new month, a brand new day and think POSITIVE guys! I hope you guys do well cus i just screwed my wkends. I'll do well tomorrow. YES I WILL! You guys too!

-chubnubs

ihatefats @ 2007-03-31T20:11:00

2007-03-31T10:11:36Z

ohhh.. It's really difficult to not binge during wkends and stay out of food when my sisters are ard. I made plans for next wk and i'm gonna keep it low from mon-thurs. Oh yes, I'm not exactly used to exercising and when i start, will i actually gain weight cus muscle are heavily than fats? But will i keep putting on weight and looker rounder or bigger? will someone help me out on this. And How do i avoid dinner with people always watching over my shoulder?

Thanks in advance!

Love
Chubnubs

Email me at: chubnubs@hotmail.com at anytime if any of u guys wants a chat!

ihatefats @ 2007-03-30T20:56:00

2007-03-30T10:56:39Z

I freaking BINGE!

I hate myself to the core for not pushing myself and effing eat so much choc! Wtf did i do? Damn it! I feel like crying and swallowing myself up! I'm a useless piece of thing. Totally!

I'm going to do the 2468 cycle next wk starting on mon. Gawd, i hope i can make it. I can't stand myself being so fat now that i wanna die. I need MOTIVATION! Omg, someone help me please!

I'm a FAT ASS!

rant.

2007-03-29T10:23:00Z

Oh god. I hate myself SO darn much. I'm not only friggin' fat but i'm freaking ugly with all these skin prob. I've got eczema all my life and its just flare up! My face is just like shit and i've got scars all over my body and face. My legs are ugly, my body sucks and i'm absolutely down. Sorry for the rant today and out of a sudden i can't keep up with myself. I'm breaking down and starting to binge. God. I'm meant to do <700cals and i had 850cal today. Damn with myself!

I always feel high after eating and i hate it. I'm going to work out tmr.

ihatefats @ 2007-03-29T13:29:00

2007-03-29T03:32:52Z

Hey guys,

I hope you all are doing well. I kinda of screw up yest and i hope i'll do better today. So how have everybody been? Again i'm in uni now and waiting to go for classes. Man, just now i met a total bitch and i really wanna slap her. Oh well, forget abt her.

500-700cals this wk. I hope i can do it. PERSEVERE yah.

ihatefats @ 2007-03-28T13:51:00

2007-03-28T03:53:24Z

Does anyone live in Aus (NSW)? Just curious! Anw, hope you girls and guys are doing well. I'm on my way to bio prac now. Take care! Hope to hear how some of you guys are doing!

ihatefats @ 2007-03-27T23:17:00

2007-03-27T13:24:18Z

Yes, my sisters are asleep now and i am SO tired. Damn, i hate myself for eating those ice-cream but luckily i manage to control and hate a little. This is how it goes today:

BF: yoghurt with cereal (200cals)
Lunch: apple (50cal)
Dinner: potato with meat and vegetables (300cal), Ice-cream (150cal)

Total: 700cal

Damn, i just made it to 700cal. It's really difficult to eat less for dinner cus my sister do the cooking and i cant avoid eating any of it or choose to eat something else. Anyone have been in this situation and cant get out of it? I need advice on this. They would really find it strange if i don't eat all of a sudden cause i use to eat anything for dinner and would 'like' it but now i hate it. What should i do?

I'm on with my 500-700 cal a day for this wk. I'm gonna lose weight weight weight and slim down. Yes i am! I hope you guys are doing well!

ihatefats @ 2007-03-26T15:54:00

2007-03-26T05:58:50Z

hey girlies,

Man, i've been binging like hell for the last wk and 2 days. DAMN I HATE MYSELF! and i really wanna get back on track like i was. I have lost 4lbs since i was reading this site a month ago and i feel really good till this wk. But when one think positive, i'm sure things would get better right? Hopefully. Good luck to all you guys! I hope i'll be able to meet my goals to lose 15lbs(~7kg) by the end of May.